why is it..............

"why is it i cant keep  promises?"

i was clueless when u asked me....

i don't know.. i don't do it on purpose

all i know is all those promises made...

were meant to be kept..

might be i got busy..

counting all those broken unfulfilled promises 

Or

might be i got busy...

searching what promises actually meant...

"why is it i am so rude?"

let me tell u i don't intend to be so...

i know it does hurt u...

all i know is the tears that i hold back

comes out in the form of harsh words...

might be its a way by which...

i try to stand unbroken in front of you

Or 

might be that's how..

i try and fool my own self

"why am i so disturbed , so unstable?"

i wished i could stay as stable 

unshaken like a mountain...

but aren't the mountains moving to unknown 

heights every second inch by inch..?

might be i have never known 

what stability means

Or

might be every stable pole i leaned on

fell off compelling me to go in search for more.....